silence
July 24, 2007
this is an ongoing story... as i publish new sections,, they will be added to the story in its entirety here....
if they spoke a her birth,,, she never heard ‘em… if they blamed her for mamas dyin’,,, she was unaware… if they thought that she was less than, ‘cause she couldn’t hear ‘em… they was wrong. ’cause she never knowed,, and didn’t care..
as a baby, she never cried,,, so they called her silence. as a child she never talked,,, musta’ had no sense… she couldn’t go to school,,, so she worked with papa.. in silence,,, she hoed, and planted, and mended fence..
when she was 12 they brought a man ’round.. name a henry… when she was 13 papa sent her off,, to be his wife.. she cried inside,,, that night,, when he done it to her,, but in silence,,, she accepted it as life….
season passed, and she could see, her belly growin’,,, when her henry patted her,,, on the bump,, it made him smile.. but when the pains come,,, she had no way a knowin’,, that li’l henry had been in there all the while….
with henry workin’, sun up to down,, in the fields, with no papa,, no kin,, all a this was new… she learned on her own, to care, for li’l henry, he spent his days,, and learned they ways,, of silence too…
silence and her boy they cooked an mended.. they fed the hogs,, the cow, the goats,, the chickens too… they canned the fruit and smoked the meats and did the scrubbin’,, they did everything she come to know,, that she should do..
they walked for miles in the summer just the two together,, they picked flowers and pretty weeds,, no difference there.. they spent the winter choppin’ wood and curin’ coonhide,, makin’ tend they wasn’t hungry when the cupboards bare…
they made a friend, name ol’ miss may,, a bent old woman.. she lived in yonder holler, just her, and all 'em cats.. she learned li’l henry ’bout talkin’ and story tellin’, she learned ‘em both ‘bout livin’ off the land, ’bout birthin’ cats..
she could mix up a tincture, to cure what ails ya.. she could say a prayer, that would draw the pain, from henry’s back.. she could make a stew, out a weeds, and roots, and flowers.. she could make a dress, from an old, worn, burlap sack..
and when it come to birthin’, she knew,, no one had to git her.. she would come on up,, when the pains had just begun,, she brung a girl first a summer,, weren’t no blessin’,, truth was,, all they needed was another son…
the girl was fair, and she was thin,, they called her sister.. she growed up fast, and learned to walk in nar a year.. she had the smile of an angel, and they come to love her.. she weren’t a boy,, but henry said, “maybe next year…”
sure enough, her belly growed ‘bout time a plantin’,, by that fall, she was swoll clean out to here.. silence knowed now and she could feel the baby movin’,, soon the night come, and ol’ may, she showed up there….
when ol’ may come, henry went off and left the women,, ‘cause he knowed his place,, and it surely wasn’t there.. when the boy come,, he had the caul of evil on him,,, ol’ may took him to the woodshed,, and left him there…
when she come back she sat in silence, and fashioned corn husks.. she twisted this, and bended that, and tied it here… she took great care, and and never spoke, whole time she worked it,, she give the doll to silence,, lit the candle and left her there…
silence lay sick, for what seemed like a season,, li’l henry he helped his pa, and sister too,, they did their best, while their ma was a mendin,, but they couldn’t know her heart and spirit was broke in two…
on the full moon silence raised up, and put her dress on.. she took the doll, and the candle, and left the house.. she walked alone, down the mountain, to the holler,,, and there, she set fire to the doll,, and miss mays house….
she sat and watched,, as her tears, they fell in silence.. she loved miss may,, but she had to do,, what she had done.. for once evil, comes to rest, upon a family,, burnin’s the only way she knowed,, to make it run…
if they spoke about miss may… she never heard ‘em… if they blamed silence for her dyin’,, she was unaware… all she knowed was ol’ miss may,, had kill't her baby.. and left the corn husk doll, and the burnin’ candle there.
as the sun rose and then set,, li’l henry,, grew up hard and strong, was nar a man.. sister tho’, she was a beauty, remained a frail one, helpin’ silence ’round the house, best she can…
li’l henry left off his momma, to work with daddy, a pickn’ an a plantn’ the in fields… his pa needed him now,, with five mouths to feed,,, and silence, had brother john on her heels..
that season, li’l henry learnt ’bout bein’ tired, ’bout bein’ hurtin’ and just plum wore out, li’l henry was swiftly becomin’ the man, his pa had been talkin’ about…
winter come and the days they got shorter,, but still there was work to be done,, wood choppin’, fence mendin’, fixin’ holes in the roof,, henry thanked god he had been blessed with two son..
sister girl she was everyones darlin’, with her yella hair and cheeks all aglow,, she would set on her pa’s lap and sang to him,, she was daddys li’l angel, don’t ya know…
in the winter of her fifth year, her spirit left her, as she lay still, on a pallet by the fire,, silence, tho she was ’bout to burst out with child,, dug a hole and planted sister,, under a heart,, she made a wire….
a piece of silence,, lay in the ground,, just next to sister.. a piece that brother john, coulda’ never knew, but was henry,, that took it the hardest,, her leavin’ pert near cut him clean thru…
first he come down with a cough, then pneumonia,, tho he said it was “just a li’l ol’ cold,”, it put him in the ground next to sister,, when li’l henry weren’t but 9 years old…
“your the man now”,, all the hill folk they would tell him.. “gotta por-vide for your ma and your kin”,, he laid up nights in the hay bed in the barn loft, just a figurin’ why the good lord hated him…
but up he’d be,, at dawn fore the cock crowed,, he’d haul the wood and the water from the well, he’d light the fire, then wake silence, fix his corn pone,, by candle light,, whole house,, cold as hell..
spring come and it was time for a plantin’.. silence, henry, brother john , baby girl too,, worked from sun up to down in the fields, they was alone now,, this is what they had to do…
in the night, in the cool of the ev’nin’,, with silence rockin’ baby girl,, all but sleep,, henry told brother john many stories,, ’bout ol’ may, and how she died in her sleep..
deep inside her,, silence heart had long since had left ‘em,, baby girl and them two boys all alone,, as summers heat ‘came winters cold… her girl-soul was stole,, all the pain and the dyin’ had left her old…
many a nights they ate grease bread and fried taters,, sometimes eggs,, or killt a chicken for to fry… but for the most them boys sat round in silence, hungry, tired,, tellin’ tales,, never askin’ why…
why the god in the heavens if there was one,, had looked down with such hate in his heart,, taken the boy baby, then sister, then papa,, leavin’ their ma and her children near tore apart.
but as she sat and she rocked by the fire light, silence said it all without formin’ a word.. the gray lined skin on her face leaving nary a trace,, of the little girl turned old woman who never heard..
when the young’uns said they loved her, she never heard ‘em…. but she could see it in their eyes,,, yes, that she knew,, tho’ they was mountain born and bred and tough as nails.. they loved their momma,, and in silence,, she loved them too..
if they spoke a her birth,,, she never heard ‘em… if they blamed her for mamas dyin’,,, she was unaware… if they thought that she was less than, ‘cause she couldn’t hear ‘em… they was wrong. ’cause she never knowed,, and didn’t care..
as a baby, she never cried,,, so they called her silence. as a child she never talked,,, musta’ had no sense… she couldn’t go to school,,, so she worked with papa.. in silence,,, she hoed, and planted, and mended fence..
when she was 12 they brought a man ’round.. name a henry… when she was 13 papa sent her off,, to be his wife.. she cried inside,,, that night,, when he done it to her,, but in silence,,, she accepted it as life….
season passed, and she could see, her belly growin’,,, when her henry patted her,,, on the bump,, it made him smile.. but when the pains come,,, she had no way a knowin’,, that li’l henry had been in there all the while….
with henry workin’, sun up to down,, in the fields, with no papa,, no kin,, all a this was new… she learned on her own, to care, for li’l henry, he spent his days,, and learned they ways,, of silence too…
silence and her boy they cooked an mended.. they fed the hogs,, the cow, the goats,, the chickens too… they canned the fruit and smoked the meats and did the scrubbin’,, they did everything she come to know,, that she should do..
they walked for miles in the summer just the two together,, they picked flowers and pretty weeds,, no difference there.. they spent the winter choppin’ wood and curin’ coonhide,, makin’ tend they wasn’t hungry when the cupboards bare…
they made a friend, name ol’ miss may,, a bent old woman.. she lived in yonder holler, just her, and all 'em cats.. she learned li’l henry ’bout talkin’ and story tellin’, she learned ‘em both ‘bout livin’ off the land, ’bout birthin’ cats..
she could mix up a tincture, to cure what ails ya.. she could say a prayer, that would draw the pain, from henry’s back.. she could make a stew, out a weeds, and roots, and flowers.. she could make a dress, from an old, worn, burlap sack..
and when it come to birthin’, she knew,, no one had to git her.. she would come on up,, when the pains had just begun,, she brung a girl first a summer,, weren’t no blessin’,, truth was,, all they needed was another son…
the girl was fair, and she was thin,, they called her sister.. she growed up fast, and learned to walk in nar a year.. she had the smile of an angel, and they come to love her.. she weren’t a boy,, but henry said, “maybe next year…”
sure enough, her belly growed ‘bout time a plantin’,, by that fall, she was swoll clean out to here.. silence knowed now and she could feel the baby movin’,, soon the night come, and ol’ may, she showed up there….
when ol’ may come, henry went off and left the women,, ‘cause he knowed his place,, and it surely wasn’t there.. when the boy come,, he had the caul of evil on him,,, ol’ may took him to the woodshed,, and left him there…
when she come back she sat in silence, and fashioned corn husks.. she twisted this, and bended that, and tied it here… she took great care, and and never spoke, whole time she worked it,, she give the doll to silence,, lit the candle and left her there…
silence lay sick, for what seemed like a season,, li’l henry he helped his pa, and sister too,, they did their best, while their ma was a mendin,, but they couldn’t know her heart and spirit was broke in two…
on the full moon silence raised up, and put her dress on.. she took the doll, and the candle, and left the house.. she walked alone, down the mountain, to the holler,,, and there, she set fire to the doll,, and miss mays house….
she sat and watched,, as her tears, they fell in silence.. she loved miss may,, but she had to do,, what she had done.. for once evil, comes to rest, upon a family,, burnin’s the only way she knowed,, to make it run…
if they spoke about miss may… she never heard ‘em… if they blamed silence for her dyin’,, she was unaware… all she knowed was ol’ miss may,, had kill't her baby.. and left the corn husk doll, and the burnin’ candle there.
as the sun rose and then set,, li’l henry,, grew up hard and strong, was nar a man.. sister tho’, she was a beauty, remained a frail one, helpin’ silence ’round the house, best she can…
li’l henry left off his momma, to work with daddy, a pickn’ an a plantn’ the in fields… his pa needed him now,, with five mouths to feed,,, and silence, had brother john on her heels..
that season, li’l henry learnt ’bout bein’ tired, ’bout bein’ hurtin’ and just plum wore out, li’l henry was swiftly becomin’ the man, his pa had been talkin’ about…
winter come and the days they got shorter,, but still there was work to be done,, wood choppin’, fence mendin’, fixin’ holes in the roof,, henry thanked god he had been blessed with two son..
sister girl she was everyones darlin’, with her yella hair and cheeks all aglow,, she would set on her pa’s lap and sang to him,, she was daddys li’l angel, don’t ya know…
in the winter of her fifth year, her spirit left her, as she lay still, on a pallet by the fire,, silence, tho she was ’bout to burst out with child,, dug a hole and planted sister,, under a heart,, she made a wire….
a piece of silence,, lay in the ground,, just next to sister.. a piece that brother john, coulda’ never knew, but was henry,, that took it the hardest,, her leavin’ pert near cut him clean thru…
first he come down with a cough, then pneumonia,, tho he said it was “just a li’l ol’ cold,”, it put him in the ground next to sister,, when li’l henry weren’t but 9 years old…
“your the man now”,, all the hill folk they would tell him.. “gotta por-vide for your ma and your kin”,, he laid up nights in the hay bed in the barn loft, just a figurin’ why the good lord hated him…
but up he’d be,, at dawn fore the cock crowed,, he’d haul the wood and the water from the well, he’d light the fire, then wake silence, fix his corn pone,, by candle light,, whole house,, cold as hell..
spring come and it was time for a plantin’.. silence, henry, brother john , baby girl too,, worked from sun up to down in the fields, they was alone now,, this is what they had to do…
in the night, in the cool of the ev’nin’,, with silence rockin’ baby girl,, all but sleep,, henry told brother john many stories,, ’bout ol’ may, and how she died in her sleep..
deep inside her,, silence heart had long since had left ‘em,, baby girl and them two boys all alone,, as summers heat ‘came winters cold… her girl-soul was stole,, all the pain and the dyin’ had left her old…
many a nights they ate grease bread and fried taters,, sometimes eggs,, or killt a chicken for to fry… but for the most them boys sat round in silence, hungry, tired,, tellin’ tales,, never askin’ why…
why the god in the heavens if there was one,, had looked down with such hate in his heart,, taken the boy baby, then sister, then papa,, leavin’ their ma and her children near tore apart.
but as she sat and she rocked by the fire light, silence said it all without formin’ a word.. the gray lined skin on her face leaving nary a trace,, of the little girl turned old woman who never heard..
when the young’uns said they loved her, she never heard ‘em…. but she could see it in their eyes,,, yes, that she knew,, tho’ they was mountain born and bred and tough as nails.. they loved their momma,, and in silence,, she loved them too..
