i only have to live till the dogs die

its a pact i made with myself a some odd years ago...
bubby is already gone... my girls are getting older,,
and i am feeling mighty old myself....

i only have to live till the dogs die..
once it was far away,,
and now that it grows closer every day,,,
i still feel ok,,,
with that arraignment...

it doesn't tie me down or hem me in...
it doesn't make sad,, this way,, about being old, and lonely, and forgotten....
it doesn't cause me worry,, this way,, about becoming sickly, being feeble, or losing my mind...
i've moved so many times...
it will be a natural progression..
a home coming,, of sorts...

i only have to live till the dogs die....

and then i'll be free... to go ...

or stay...

i can re-decide every day....

if i want to....

but not till the dogs die....